Momma mia!

Oh......my....GOD! I really cant belive it. Mommys gonna hate me.

...an e-mail to my best Tammy.



Any big news? wow! I see that we are still joined at the brain Tammy! Thats so crazy. Ok....well, your not gonna belive this. Im kinda.......you know....."with child". I still cant say the actaul word out loud its so weird but you get me. I just found out yesterday. Im so worried cuz i dont have a job, i have like 15 thousand dollars to repay in loans, Gio's got a shity job that he's trying to get to a full time and not to mention i have no job. ::sigh::: We wanna keep it and we told his parents yesterday and his dad seamed kinda so so about it but he's cool and the mom was all "alright then!". She was mad cool about it. Now i have to tell my own mom and i dont know how im gonna do that. Your the only one of my ppl that i told, you and another friend that i have here. Why me huh? Im excited tho just worried about how hard its gonna be 'specially in the begining. But his family is happy and he's happy like no bodys business which makes it easier and we talked about this for as long as we were together. heh. The timing is way off but in some way he needs something like this to force him to grow up and if im wrong about that then im really screwed but i will just go on home and do it on my own and im not afraid of that cuz my mom pretty much raised us on her own and with all the bullshit of my pops. heh. So, im happy about it tho. Excited but scared of everything. Scared im gonna get fat too! Im gonna be a wide ass i know it! I have to work out. And being around all these italians and then their mostly men they all make me eat even if i cant eat anymore and thats on a non pregnant day.Plus i like to eat. Oh god Tammy! This is so scary and un expected? We were gonna get married tho to settel my visa problems and now we dont have to but it was prolly better if we got married first. That way i could work too. NOw no one is really gonna hire a pregnet ass women if she gotta go on maternity leave in 9 months. I am really screwed. What do you think?

Tisha